gaaaaaaaaah.

i am tired and i am stressed. i have so much work to do with so little motivation. i cannot wait for the day when i can do something that doesn't make me feel actually stupid on a day-to-day basis. it really is hardcore rubbish. one day i am genuinely going to be good at something, i really am going to have at least one original thought a day and not just a thought copied out of a book, written by someone else, looked up in a dictionary/on wikiwikipedia. ahhh if only i knew what....

hello charl and rach :) xxx

confusion on life.

so today I ventured to the Liverpool Graduate Fair. I knew exactly what it would be like, it would be too busy and too confusing and it would all be compltely business focused, using random huge umbrella terms, aimed at people with real life degrees and not degrees in Philosophy. I was yet again drawn to Law but now Mathew has decided to mention a year abroad next year. It is very weird to be at that age now where it is ok to make decisions with someone else. I could be putting off a whole year of my academic life just because he mentioned the idea of going away with him. Of course, that is what I want to do but I can't stop thinking of money, where to live while we save and when exactly did we all become so grown up. It is absolutely terrifying but i have the travelling bug now and it is all I want to do.
Hello Charl, the only one who knows this exists :)

I absolutely cannot wait to see all my lovely friends on Saturday where it does not matter if we are 14 or 40, I really think that these will be the people around for life.

my very first blog.

And so, I have created a blog. I have no idea why, apart from the fact that for the first time in a very long time, I actually have work and stuff to do and I just do not want to yet. And also because reading the blog's of others has made me realise that they do not have to be completely fashion based (all my stuff is from primark and the clothes that aren't have been donated...) but that they can be about other things which are really, if not much more, important. They are about friends, family, love. I am not 100% sure right now who will ever read this, I think it may be a very very priveleged and select few and I probably won't tell the truth very much and my spelling and punctuation and grammar can quite often be appalling. But (and I do start the majority of my sentences with non-beginning of sentence words such as "and" and "but") I hope that this will lead to some amusing anecdotes, important self reflection and a way for us all to stay in touch with our selves and our friends that little bit better.